Fenz Memories

~mY tHoUgHtS~

Am surfing flowerpod, looking for some sprees in progress but seems that all sprees have closed. Haiz.. In the mood to shop and spend recently but it's alwis the case when you wanna spend, there's nothing that catches your attention. WHen you dun wanna spend, there'll be so many stuff out there calling out to you.. "Buy Me! Take me HOME!!"

SUpposed to have a majong session with Ron and friends today, but have postponed it to next week. Am really too shaq out for the past 2 weeks with OT at work. I finally get the chance to slp for more than 12hrs today but what I got in return is a swollen eye. Haiz! I can't seem to wear lens anymore.. my left eye is really playing me out. Only wore lens once in 2 weeks and yet my eye hurts. Think I must really start saving up and go for lasik.

Although been doing tonnes of OT, this company really provide me with the experience which I never have thought I can gained. All thanks to Nancy too. I remembered Yue Yang once told me. You need luck besides the hardwork you put in. Even if you really work hard but no one appreciates and no one sees it, it simply only means hard work gone down the drain. For me, I think Nancy muz be my 贵人. Although she's only in the company for a short 5 months, she taught me alot. From simple admin duties to complex human related issues. Everything that you can't learn from your boss, she's willing to teach. Not only these. She has indirectly paved out the future that I want. Before, I never know what is it that I really want in my career. Now, I know what I want and slowly, I am planning my path towards the goal. Itz not gonna be easy due to financial probs, but I know I will achieve it one day.

Been feeling down recently. Relationships are juz so fragile. Be it friendship or love. People who used to care for you can just disappear from your life without you knowing why. You tried to get an answer but you just simply get none that's sincere. As you get older, your circle of friends get smaller. Have a really really good friend, Michelle. Hang out together with Fang and Ron when we were in secondary school and poly. Ever since she got married, our relationship with her seems to have distant too. Occasionally we do meet up but the "Occasionally" just get lesser and lesser. Fang with her boyfriend, studies and work, is also too busy to meet up with us. The only person left whom we still meet up frequently will be Sharon. My one and only primary school good frd. Am really glad that she found me few yrs back when we were in secondary school. This, is called fate. Lost and found after 3/4 yrs. Sometimes she really have a terrible attitude but still, this is a friendship I'll cherish for life. Of course, the same goes to Fang, Ting, Yunmei, Chingyi. I have limited good ger friends.

COngrats to Kain's bro. Tying the knot tomorrow. Think the ROM is a happy place to work in cause everyday you'll see happy couples exchanging the promises of love and commitment in times poverty and wealth, sickness and health, and the bands that will bind them together from then on. I don't think of marriage as much as compared to before, cause it seems such a far away thing now. My wish now is to settle down in my career and hopefully a chance to further my studies.

I think I've blogged quite abit today. Actually there are many many more thoughts in me but I am tired. Not tired of blogging, but tired of having to relinguish all the thoughts and memories that bring my mood down. I think I'll have to take a break..