Fenz Memories

What I wanna hear from someone... from his heart...

I never meant to do those things to you
And so i have to say before I go
That I juz want you to know
I'd found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
I found a reason to show,
A side of me You din know
A reason to start all anew and the reason is you.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
Its someting i muz live with everyday
And all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could tk it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
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Celebrated my 22nd bdae 2 weeks ago... time really flies.. in a blink of an eye, I'm no longer 21.. it seems yesterday that I celebrated my 21st birthday... wonder how I will be doing in 5 years time.. Suddenly remembered a story...

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Girl loves Boy alot, he's the love of her life... never has Girl ever love so much.. Girl dotes on Boy with all her heart, always thinking of sweet and romantic stuff to be shared and done with Boy. Boy is an innocent teenager. Girl is his 1st girlfriend... but he tries his best to be a good boyfriend to Girl, he dotes on Girl alot too, and they spent many sweet and happy moments together. However, Boy is a very passive person. Girl will alwis be the one to ask him out and whenever they are together, Girl will be the 1 to hold his hands, to hug him... Very seldom will he initiate anyting to Girl. Boy only calls Girl when Girl msg him.. Initiate calls to her for less den 10 times during the year they were together.. Boy tried to change.. tried to be more initiative, but itz still the same... This leads Girl to feeling sadz, unhappy, often wondering if Boy really loves her.. She knows he does, but why doesn't he do more to show he cares? Girl remembered once, Boy showed abit of jealousy over Girl... The 1 and only time She can remembered.. Little did Boy know that Girl is Very very happy that day.. She can feel the love.. However, once in a hundred times is never enough... Over time.. Girl feels tired of alwis being the active party in the relationship, alwis the 1 to initiate.. With all her courage, she sent a message to Boy. "Do you think we are betta off as friends?" Sadly.. Boy agrees... With a broken heart, Girl left Boy... Girl regrets sending Boy the message... She tried to get back with Boy, but Boy refused... Girl never give up.. until the day Boy told her 1 thing, she never pester Boy anymore... Girl put up a cheerful front in front of others.. but deep in her heart, she can never get over the 1st person she ever loved so much.. She tired to act nonchalent whenever she sees Boy.. But her heart really yearns for him.. Girl wanna love him again... wan him to love her again.. wan to share sweet moments with him again.. But Girl has already betrayed her feelings for Boy... She accepted another guy into her life without getting over Boy.. She felt sadz.. She never wanted to.. but she has her reasons....

Over the years.. Girl met up with Boy occasionally..The last time Girl saw Boy, Boy has changed.. He's no longer the passive person he used to be.. Boy has become more gentleman, a sweeter guy... Boy, is no longer Boy.. Has become a Man... Girl feels happy that Boy has changed but somewhere deep in her heart, she misses the "old" Boy.. the once shy... innocent... and funnily... passive Boy.. She knows that they can never be together anymore... and the only thing Girl wished for.. is for Boy to find Happiness and a good girlfriend.. for Girl knows that Boy deserve someone betta than her... She only wanna said 1 thing to Boy...
"An Angel once brought you to me.. though for a short moment.. You left a mark in my heart. I will never forget you.."

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