~fIsHeRmAn vIlLaGe (10Sep04)~

Hmz..guess this entry is kinda outdated..Anyway, went Fisherman VIllage with Xiaohou,Weiliang,Henry and Ah ron~ Reach there super late lor... reached there ard 2+am... It has a very nice ambience, but 1 thing bad is that they are playing 2 different genre of songs den itz like so confusing... cant really concentrate on 1 song.. were sitting there and chatting when suddenly.. it starts to drizzle.... then downpour. but we were already in the shelter wen its raining heavily.. hehe.. Were drinking and singing our hearts out.. It all started with a game and in the end... all of us were singing out all the old songs.. older then wad you can guess.. haha!


Hmz... this is supposed to be a group photo, but Henry seems so "out" (there's a couple amidst the group wor.. Guess shd be obvious uh.. ^_*)


The background should be the sea.. but itz kinda dark so all that can be seen is a pitch black blackground. Sitting beside Ron I feel like a Shao Ji(Roasted Chicken) while Ron is like a Bai Zhan Ji(White Chicken).. wahhaha!

MamBo @ ZoUk (08Sep04)

Went Zouk... Mambo Night.. my 1st time to Zouk for Mambo.... Retro all the way..Heard my Favourite song, Bizzare Love Triangle (Still remember that Jimmy is the 1 who intro me to this song.. Hmz.. Haben been in contact with him for very long.. guess we are all busy with our own stuff) and surprisingly, they play "I Dont Wanna Know" by Mario Winans and P.Daddy.. hehe All in all.. itz FUn, but the ppl there are so stupid.. dancing to the same dancesteps.. Ji siao WeiWEi when he's doing those "actions" wahahha!!Anyway, his dimple is very very attractive lor! wahah!! Dimple and Tiger tooth attract me(I Know I've said this umpteen times)!!! But too bad Dearie has neither.. By the time Weiliang sent me home itz 5am... -_- Super tiring.. somemore there's work the next day.. haiz.. Slept for only 2hrs lor...

~bOrEd~

Wakey at 12+, but Dearie is still pigging!! I m starving.... -_-"

Dearie: Dear dear hungry liao hoh?
Me : Yes
Dearie: But I cant wakey... (and he dropped dead on his bed again....)

Super bored... Seriously considering going to Daiso with Sharon lata.. Juz saw the post on FP about Daiso and the shop is like so interesting... But dunno if I should leave Dearie alone.. cuz he's bookin in lata le... haiz... *headache*

How to make a audrey

Ingredients: 3 parts success 5 parts arrogance 5 parts ego

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of curiosity and enjoy!

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Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

~Saturday at Home..~

At Dearie's house now.. He's reading his US FHM on his bed and I'm blogging... Guys.. Love FHM so much.. Muz be the sexy bikini girls inside.. wahahaha!! Watched Windstruck juz now... Itz sooooo sadz.. The Story of the Pinkies... Itz very touching... Haiz.. If your loved 1 leave you suddenly, it'll be so hard to accept it. I too will wish that he'd accompany me for the 49 days before his spirit leaves forever... Cried my Eyes out... they are now looking like those of a Goldfish.. O_O I Sobbed LOUD and Dearie actually had the heart to laff at me... BAD!

Wakey at 7pm today (Cuz I slept at 6am this morn ok! ) oh gosh I'm really beginning to think if my behavior really resemble a pig's... I love to sleep alot and I love to eat... Luckily I'm not growing horizontally...

Anyway, very tired to blog.. Shall update about my Mambo night last wed and my 1st visit to Fisherman Village Yesterday (The reason Why I am home so late... -_-") some other days..

~Quiz~

Hmz.. saw this quiz at Daz blog.. find it quite interesting.. had a go at it, and this are the results

eXpressive: 8/10
Practical: 5/10
Physical: 4/10
Giver: 6/10

You are a XPIG--Expressive Practical Intellectual Giver.

This makes you a Catch.You are a magazine-cover, matinee idol dreamboat. Parents love you and want to set you up with their kids. However, first dates are tough because it takes time for your qualities to come out.

You are generous and kind. You think first and act later. You are cool in a conflict, but your practical side means if your partner throws out emotional appeals ("why can't we do what I want for a change?") they will grate on your nerves, even when the conflict is resolved.

You're a romantic. You enjoy the thrill of the hunt, and you don't just fall into bed with anyone. You pay close attention to your significant other's needs, and this makes you an excellent lover and partner. The problem is that your friends and lovers may find it so easy to express things to *you* that they lose sight of whether you feel as comfortable with *them*! This doesn't necessarily make you feel under-appreciated -- you're too well-adjusted and self-aware for that -- but you may feel restless. Thus you seek adventure in your life outside the relationship to prove and actualize yourself.

Of all the types, you would make the best parent.

You are coiffed. Didja see "Big Fish"? 'Cause you're like Ewan MacGregor in "Big Fish."

Of the 56722 people who have taken this quiz, 8.3 % are this type.

20 Questions to a Better Relationship

~enCoUnTeRs iN vEnIcE & rOmE~

Hmz.. Realized that I've no pics to post.. haiz.. to me, A blog without pictures are boring! Added a new link, My Ah Mei, ChingYi! ^_^ Anyway, on our way home after work 2dae, Michelle was telling me about wad happened to her friend in Venice and Rome.. Here goes...

Girl(G) and Boy(B) were on a sorta wedding package to Venice and Rome, phototaking with a few other couples. 1st destination was Venice.. G&B checked into a hotel room and when they were sleeping at night, they suddenly heard a loud *thum thum* sound. They could sense that something was amiss cuz, well.. you juz know it rite? Hence B took out his Bible and began saying out prayers. Never had a wink of good rest till morn. This is just the beginning..

Rome was their next destination. B saw this really nice hotel, (well, wad you would expect in Rome, really those ancient kinda hotel, very nice) and decided that they will reside there for their stay. Who knows that this nice, grand ancient-lookin hotel is actually worse den the previous... With them were 2 photographers(1 room) and their assistants(1 room). 1 of the assistants has this 3rd eye which can see spirits. When she stepped into her room with the other assistant, she was stunned... there were so many of "them" People like her have to keep quiet and pretend that they never see anyting and go about doing their stuff like normal, so she went for a bathe and guess wad... There were really soooo many of them.. As she started to bathe, all of them just "went" into the bathroom.. This was the 1st time she saw sooooo many spirits. She was being scare the hell outta her. She started reciting the prayers from the bible and the unexpected happened.. She was slapped!!!

She rushed outta the room with the other assistant to the reception counter. To her surprised, the receptionist actually knew that the room was dirty, but said that so far noone had been disturbed by "them". She was the one being slapped, of cuz she doesn't wana go back to the room, hence they were given another room. But once the person opened the door for her, she immediately said she doesn't want the room.. seems that there were also alot of spirits inside.. Since there were no available rooms, they shared a room with the photographers. Know what the spirits were wearing?? Victorian...

The End.. the above is true wor. itz not a story.. really makes mi cringe after hearing it.. eeeks! ANyway, Osmose is having this "Pay by nets and get 20% off" sales. Only at the Wisma branch.. till 19sept. Hehe.. Michelle got a shirt lor.. Am soooo tempted.. Will Go see see after I get my pay.

Hmz.. My eyes are giving me problem.. feelin itchy, sore and rash.. old ailment.. sux! anyway, shall knit now. Have to finish casting for Michelle to start her knitting.

~Jianzhong~

Waiting for Dearie to Finish playing his game before goin for lunch... Am so damn hungry liao and he'd not called me yet! So decided to do a short blog.. Chatting with Jianzhong in Msn now.. haiz.. he's 1 good friend whom I dun really get to keep in contact often.. He even had his blog taken down so no means of keepin myself updated on his life.. But someone is a silent reader of my blog.. haha! Anyway... can I keep ppl updated of your life?

Jianzhong ah! Busy busy guy~ His weekend schedule all packed! Sat morn will be training in camp, noon go for Bike lesson and nite will be rest time. SUn morn bike lesson again(wow~ Intensive~!!) den after tt he'll be off to sentosa with his frds! Speakin of sentosa... when are we gonna have a poly outing to sentosa uh? Haben been there for so long.. I wanna go there play vb(though I suX! haha) canoe and relax~~!!! someone organise lehz! Oh yeah, continue.. Jianzhong maybe goin to Indonesia for army exchange programme from 20Nov to end Dec... If he's really goin, then he'll have to cel his 21st bdae there liao.. and CHRISTMAS~! So guess we betta get hold of him fast before he leave..

Hmz.. super hungry... Longing for KFC, think I'm gonna call Dearie now to chase him liao!

~3rd sep, Dearie's 22nd Bday~

It's Dearie's bday 2dae... hehe.. the plot that I mentioned that I was hitchin.. hehe.. Can be disclosed now.. Lied to Dear that I never buy anything for him, cuz I'm broke.. In actual fact, I am.. after buying Jos's and Dearie's present.. Initially wanted to get Dearie a wallet, but it seems that there's no nice wallet out there.. =( In the end, got Dearie a BIG SQUISHY CUDDLY LOVELY HEARTY CUSHION~!~!~ Hehe.. Last but not the least, spent the last of my $ on Dearie's cake..

Called Dearie and rushed him over him to my hse before the clock struck 12.. Well, Wanted to surprise Dearie, but it turns out that he gave me a surprise 1st.. He got me a glass rose.. WOW~! Specially got his frd to customised it for him when his frd went to Malaysia.. I'm soooo touched!!! Itz really lovely as you can see from the photo.. Hehe... Thanks My Dearest.. Used to think that you are unromantic, dunno how to give surprises... but it seems that... You've really changed alot.. I dunno izzit for me.. but I really appreciate it if it really is. ^_^

Anyway, poured Dearie some drinks, off the lights as he was watchin tv in my room.. told him I'm going to the toilet, but actually I was lighting up the candles on the cake in the kitchen. hehe.. Walked into the room with the lighted cake and sang Happy Birthday song.. made a wish, blow the candles, and he found his Present in the cupboard! Hehe.. hmz.. Nthing much that I can get for Dear, only this small surprise for him.


Dearie's Blackforest Cake from Bengawan Solo.. Not bad.. quite nice.. hehe.. His fav is blueberry, but this is blackcurrent


Yeah! The BIG SQUISHY CUDDLY LOVELY HEARTY CUSHION.. Itz not cheap wor~! Izzit Hearty Enuff? haha.. A big Heart leh~


Dearie and I taking a pIc with the cake... and HUGGING the Microbeads Cushion~!


THis is the glass rose that I mentioned.. So nice hoh! But my photography skills aint good enough to capture the glassy and transparency look... hehe.. but I love it!~!~ *hugz dearie*

~Friday, Bourne Supremacy~

Got a surprise 2dae wor~ Saw Ben(used to work with him at Synovate) at STB.. haha! Sucha surprised.. He has actually grown more mature now. He's workin part time with STB, doing some IT stuff.. Hmz.. Had lunch alone today, cuz Michelle had an eye infection, went to see doc and got an injection sia.. She described the pus and blood ooze and the injection to me.. ALamak.. Scary and gross!! Anyway, she went back after having an MC.. Rest well babe~ hehe.. Hope you are betta now..

Watched Bourne Supremacy with Dearie.. itz a nice show.. haha.. how come I only know how to use the word nice to describe show uh? haha.. Well.. my vocab is limited lar.. bo bianz. haha! ANyway.. you can really feel the heartpain when your loved one died.. when the truth about your own parent's death is revealed and you realized that itz not what you alwis think it is.. Anyway.. Guys, please catch the show!!!

Waiting...

What am I waiting for? I am waiting for the results of Singapore Idol, and waitin for Dearie to come over.. hehe.. Hitching a plot.. haha.. Shall update after tonight...

Am listening to You Are Not Alone by Michael Jackson.. Nice song.. Remembered that I used to like him alot.. like him for? For his wierd looks.. haha!

Oh.. results coming out.. hmz.. the contestants this time round is not that great as compared to last week lehz.. Hmz.. Wonder who'll get into the top 3...

~New Layout~

Changed the colour and layout of my blog.. hmz.. nothing much though.. hehe.. Not good with codes wor~ Anyway, itz the 15th day of Lunar Seventh Month and while I was on train on my way home from work juz now, surprisingly, I managed to get a seat... 1st time wor~ haha.. Muz be cause itz the 15th, everyone had rushed home.. wahahha!

*yawnz* muz go meet zhou gong liao.. nitez nitez~

~Weekend with dEaRiE~

Said that I wanna take pics with Dearie and post it here and as promised... here's mine and dearie's pic~ hehe..

Dearie's wearing the shirt I bought for him from KL and oh yah, Dearie dun like to smile...

Hope dearie dun scold me for posting his "Ge Ren Xie Zhen" =p

Kept my promise to Dearie.. Really spent the whole weekend with him. Hehe...Went to Comex2004 yesterday.. WOw~ Itz like going for countdown... sooo many people and the escalator coming out of citylink to the bridge linking to suntec is not workin!! Squeezing through the journey to suntec is onli the 1st part.. We have to squeeze our way through the exhibition.. itz really "people mountain people sea" lor.. anyway... Dear was super pissed off... have to keep ji siao him with the phrase "fark sia" haha.. He was queuing up to get his Creative Zen Touch Mp3 Player. Who knows that the person in front of us bought the last piece... Hence we have to go back empty-handed..

Met up with Ariel and went for the Singing Teachers' Association Singapore Inaugural Concert at Victoria Concert Hall... Been such a long time since I last went there..The last time I went is during my secondary school times.. Went to watch the SYF Choir Performance.. or Competition? wow.. itz like 8yrs ago.. I cant remember... Hmz.. itz such a great feeling to be sitting inside... suddenly feel so.... "you mo shui" wahhaha!! Anyway... the Concert consist of

- Opera Aria and Musical
- French Melody
- German Lieder
- Italian and Chinese Arts songs
- Malay and Indian Traditional songs and last but not the least
- Chinese and English Pop songs..

I only understand the Chinese and English pop songs though.. haha.. hmz.. But 1 thing I must admit is.. those soloists... their voice are really powerful and nice.. the sopranos.. woo hoo~ i can never be like them... I must say... they are great~!!!!!

Went to Comex2004 again today.. Dearie went back to get his Zen Touch and all the way I was repeating "Quick Quick Quick Quick Quick" haha!! Was afraid that it'll get sold out again. After Comex was to Beach Road then Bugis.. Haiz.. never really shopped today.. someting's wrong with Dearie's nose.. keep sneezing.. so in the end had to go home..

SAw Yueyang these 2 days at the Roadshow.. He looked so tired.. poor thing... muz cope with both studies and work.. hmz.. Singapore is really sucha realistic world.. everything has to do with $$$$$...

Watched "13 Going On 30" hehe.. Nice show.. Gave me a very sweet feeling..

Singapore Idol

Watchin Just for Laughs.. Laughing hard manz! wahahaha!! Itz Only now then I know that this show is so super funny... Anyway, Was watching Singapore Idol juz now and realised that 1 of the contestant was from SP, same batch as me.. haha! hmz.. but his singing is not really that great lar.. Jesse and David Yeo are good though! Hmz.. very anxious to know the results.. Though can guess that Jesse will cfm be in.. This is my 1st time watching Sg Idol.. all thanks to Weiliang that I got the chance to watch. If not I'll be at CWP Library returning CD.. haha.. Weiliang is a very very good guy.. but too good to gers will be bullied easily.. Anyway.. I'm damn blur today.. brought an empty CD case to return today, CD in my PC.. $%^&*$%

Hmz.. been missing Dearie ever since I came back from the KL trip.. Discovered that my feelings for him has deepened... alot... Never really had the chance to accompany Dearie cuz I m such a bad gf... alwis out with frds on weekend.. So to make up for it, promised him that I'll give him all my time this Sat and Sun! Be going for the Comex 2004 Exhibition.. hehe.. so excited.. Haben been out with Dearie for soooooooooo long... Really looking forward to it.. ^_^ Really cant bear the tot of Dearie leaving for studies.. Used to think I can take it, but now I realised that I'll miss him super damn lotz.. haiz... Dear dear~!~!~!~!~ =(

Well.. explored Multiply yesterday and did a short and "nothing" journal inside.. haha! And very expectedly, received a reply from an unknown person...haha.. well.. went to his multiply and find him a very "frank" person.. haha.. Eh.. frank lar.. haha!! hmz.. hopefully tis sat take pic with dearie den can upload to here. heh.. Missing him alot now wor...

Results for SG Idol in process.. very obvious who's winning lor... waiting waiting waiting..... As predicted.. Jesse, David Yeo and Olinda...

Got my policy.. finally ah~

Met up with Yueyang at CWP.. passed him his small gift, and took my policy.. He's still as lame.. as lame as me.. Poor guy tripped while playin soccer... aiyo... muz tc tc ah..

SatuRdAY, 21aUg 2004, 1st attempt at rollerbladin~

Finally went for rollerblading @ ECP.. been ranting and ranting for so long that I wanna learn. haha! Khoo is my shi fu.. den after fang and her colleagues reached.. we blade to elsewhere liao.. hmz.. blading is much easier than ice skating.. but i still cant break.. haha! Khoo keep teaching me the "T-break" but itz sooooooooooooooooo tough!!! Guess Blading will be my latest craze ba.. haha.. till when?? To be confirmed. keke! Alwis love go to ECP.. cuz I feel that it has the nicest beach in Spore... and .... many doggies!!!

Chio? Yeah.. these are the 2 dogs I saw at ECP.. are they husky? anyway.. they are damn chio lor!! if only 1 day I can get to keep these dogs too.. haiz... but think itz quite impossible.. I stick to pomeranian betta.. haha!

*yawnz* chalet on fri nite.. chalet yest nite... super tiring now.. tink i go slp liao..

very very touching..

A fatal misunderstanding and the person who love me the most in this world is gone forever.

Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our original intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, every thing became too late.

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young.Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today.

I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he said: "Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her country-side habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat the flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowlyyou will get use to it."

Mother stopped saying anything. But every time there after, whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.

Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. In your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash they again. One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me. I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? we couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?"

After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please. In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.

That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up> my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threw down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes. I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really didn't mean it.

We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best andputting> up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite forfood, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in my life. Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible, you should go and see a doctor."

The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant. Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted lookin his eyes that cut right through my heart.

I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.

That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.

The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless.

I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Through out the furneral, hubby did say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the country-side. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...

I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if... In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.

Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by,hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart.

One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything.

The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me.

That night, he did not come home, he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death, so did our love for each other. He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff.

I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished. I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table,there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there.

After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull e paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him. "LD, you are pregnant?"

Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said:"Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seem so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me, I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep deep scars in each other's heart. For me, its unintentional; for him, totally intentional.

I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated! Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him. From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart.

Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He have forgotten that last time, I cared for him and am concerned because there is love, but now, what is there between us?

Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the way till baby was born. Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of that matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brown, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind:In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did? He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in, his warm eyes caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain.

Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at me and our son, his eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper paincutting through my body at that moment.

Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer? Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying:"Prepare for his funeral." I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me.

Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son: "Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no long has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered,she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..."

From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there. Hubby has also written a letter for me:

"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby... My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging..."

Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang thought the air as tears slowly rolled down my face...

Never had a good nite sleep ever since I came back from my KL trip.. practically reach home after 12 every nite.. OMG! Only get to come back early 2nite.. And tmr I'm supposed to go to a chalet again... -_-" Tired!!!! I need rest!! If not I'll fall sick!!!!

Wednesday, 11Aug2004 (gEntiNg/kL tRiP)

Took the 10pm coach to Genting... A long long journey, but unable to fall aslp... People says, A picture speaks a thousand words.. Well.. Here goes~

Thurs, 12Aug2004 (~Cold Cold weather~)

Reached First World Hotel @ Genting at 4+am.. Took our 1st pic with this tree at the lobby. haha!! Fang and I were so cold.. we were all wrapped up..haha! (Temp @ 16 degrees celcius)

Taken outside A Casino.. Hmz.. The biggest casino at Genting.. haha.. Dunno the name..Fang and I tried out luck with the slot machines with RM10.. Well.. gone~ haha!

Friday, 13Aug2004 (Swiss Garden Hotel @ KL)

Reached KL via coach from Genting around.. 2+ or 3pm? Stayed at the 8th floor for both First World and Swiss Garden.. Same room No. somemore.. room 15. haha! Here's Fang posing outside our rooms.. Fang and I (816), THe Guys (815) ^_^

Here's me on the biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggg king size bed that Fang and I are going to sleep in comfy for the 2 nights. haha! Itz really a nice and big and cosy room.. yeah!

Looks the same? haha.. Room815, the guys' room... (but of cuz the gers' room is neater! haha)

Saturday, Sunday ( Sh0ppers' pArAdIsE)

Can you imagine shopping at KL with their mega sales~!!?? Converted to S$, itz really cheap lor!! haha.. Fang and I shop till our legs ache manz.. Spent 1 day shopping at Berjaya Times Square and the next day at Sungei Wong.. hmz.. Wad can I say? Can't get enough of shopping. haha!

Embarking On our journey back home. Taken on the coach. We look tired? We are indeed!!

SuNdAy, Ktv

Wanted to catch the fireworks, But in the end only got stuck in the super long jam with Xiang. For 2 and a half hr, we din get out of the car at all!!! Din catch the fireworks too.. Went Kbox after that with Xiang, Weiliang, Xiaohou and Sharon... reached home 7+am sia~

~9 AuG, National DaY~





As you can see... Xiang and I were at the Kallang National Stadium to witness Singapore's Bday Live!!! We were in red~!~ Yeah! and the fireworks totally rocks! The rest, itz the same as the preview...

t0dAy, dAmNeD pIssEd oFf

Acc Weizhong to Bugis today, to shop for his Gal friends' bday presents.. hmz.. super rich guy.. wahaha! After that he acc me to woodlands old interchange to change $$ hehe.. sucha nice frd!!! *hugz hugz* ;p

In a super pissed off mood.. juz recv a damn bitch news juz now... #$%^&*()_ 1 friend crossed off my list.

~A Long Long Weekend~

ThursDay, i Love dOGs~
Met Yeuyang @ Jurong Point after my interview.. Since I'm early, I went to the Library, read up a book on how to choose a dog.. hehe.. Keepin a dog is really not easy. Many factors to consider and time really play a very important part. I think even if I get married I also wun be able to keep a dog immediately. Have to consider that my hubby and I have to work, then need to have children and wait for them to be abit older 1st.. Haiz... so sadz..

Had dinner @ Swensen.. Curry Baked rice for me, Apple Crumple and a very chocolate"ty" ice cream for YueYang and I... haha.. Stupid guy, dun like to eat sweet stuff still ordered the ice cream.. in the end we had to play guessing game to finish the ice cream. Well.. My worse was when I had to eat the cherry.. and Yueyang actually had suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch a happy time lookin at my distorted expression trying to swallow the cherry... >_<>

Weiliang came to fetch me after that. Went to my old neighbourhood at Jurong west.. haiz.. that place really hold so much memories for me.. went through my childhood there.. Saw the basketball court where Joseph used to snatch my hairband and run away, making me chase him around.. hehe.. those were the days.. and also remembered that mine and Renjie's family alwis go to the market and etc etc.. After that fetched sharon from JE Station and we proceed to ECP for supper!! ahahha.. wEll.. my supper, their dinner... haha! Weiliang ah!!! POwerful man!! Hhaha! Was listening to Sharon and I talkin that he missed a turn at the expressway and had to go back to Jurong again... Supposed to reach Bedok in ard half an hr to fetch Ariel, in the end, took 1 hr to reach... -_-" NVM!! took around half an hr to reach bedok from ECP.. haha.. weiliang is the best driver I've ever seen! Yeah!! 3 cheers for him! whahaah.. Anyway, the sting ray and BBQ chicken wings there is nice.. hehe.. Reach home kinda late.. and we are all workin on fri morn!! (except Ariel lar) haha!

Friday, Dbl O NIte

Went Dbl O after work.. well.. friday is the day to play rite? ahah!! Weiliang( a real gentleman) came to my place to fetch me before going over to sharon's... Haha.. someone dunno how to go to MS from Orchard.. after alighting Sharon at MU, we spend half an hr driving around before I called SHijie and ask him how to go to MS from ZOuk.. wahahah!! Weiliang ah... really need to go recce someday.. haha!! Anyway, wen I reached Dbl O, Alex and Shijie already High liao.. 2 guys with girl's prob.. haiz... Was so surprised to see Alex Misa coming with Sharon, cuz he's supposed to be in camp, but he paid someone to take over his duty lar.. haha! bad boy! Well.. I was gone too.. only had 1 flaming lambor and 2 waterfall and I'm a dead fish.. haiz.. I sux sia.. have to brush up my drinkin skills.. bt I have a very weak stomach.. so I think, 4get it.. shd quit drinkin instead. Ah fang gone too lor! wahahah!! So all thanx to Sharon who remain sober and look after me..

Made Weiliang damn pissed off with me that nite.. I ignored him... and Made him feel like a chauffer.. haiz.. i dun mean to lor.. but cuz I m drunk.. Sorry.. but he forgave me though.. hehe.. thanks..

Saturday, Hangover..

wow~ had hangover again.. wakey at 9+am... I also dunno y i wakey so early.. keke... Feelin damn terrible.. but had to concealed it, cant let mummy know.. i cant stand, i cant walk, i can onli sit and sleep.. but... goin facial with mummy so had to tahan.... the ger doin my facial 2dae is very very good! excellent! She's new... but she's very gently and xi xin.. hehe.. her massage is also the best! haha!! shiok shiok!!!

Watched "the village" the show sux!!! Sux big timE!!! DUN WATCH!

~Teppanyaki and DIY Ice Cream Buffet @ yUkI yAkI~

Tuesday, Happy Bday Winson!!

Supposed to meet Weizhong after work today, but it seems that he's too far away in his dreamland... Din manage to pull him out... And so I meet Winson for his Bday.. Had long wanted to try the DIY ice cream buffet at Yuki Yaki at Cineleisure with Yunmei. But instead I went for it with Winson today. hehe.. the above plate of food are all teppanyaki"ed" by me wor~ Yhey have teppanyaki, steamboat and DIY ice cream buffet. You can choose any of the 3 combinations, or all 3.. but frankly, I will only recommend their DIY ice cream buffet cuz there's not much variety of food for the other 2 buffet, and itz very very oily for Teppanyaki style as you have to keep adding oil.. *yucks* I feel so unhealthy after eating the food..

This is the ice cream in liquid form.. They have quite a few flavors for you to choose.. around 20? Clockwise starting from the purple cup:Grape, Tiramisu, Walnut, Rum and Rasin. have to fry and fry before it becomes those ice cream u see selling outside.... (look below) They also have ice cream accompaniments such as loveletters(strawberry & choco), butter waffle, bread and a few others lar.. Not many, about 6?? Anyway, the liquid juz hardened wen you pour it into the pan.. You can actually see frost on the pan.. hehe.. so nice... and you know whaT? That's the same pan used for Teppanyaki.. haha!! The waiter actually cleaned the pans on the spot.. Interesting uh~

Itz really tough work frying the ice cream lor!! It took me sooooooo much strength!!! Anyway, there's a method in this DIY ice cream thing. You can't just pour it into the pan and let it solidify... the texture wun taste nice... The correct method is to keep scraping it and fry, and I really mean FRY, it.. for guys mayb easy, but for gers, well.. lotsa strength is needed.. hehe.. The above is my "Rum & Rasin" ice cream in process....

Yeah!! Finished product.. Me holding Audrey's "Rum &Rasin" Ice Cream with Butter Waffle!! haha!!! anyway, the ice cream taste really nice... Hmz.. I definitely will go back again, but only for the DIY Ice Cream Buffet..*yummy* ^_^

WednesDay, 2 more days to go~

Having an interview tmr.. hope it wun be another stupid job makin me waste my time..

~M0n again, an0ther 4 m0re days t0 g0...

haha.. i have 2 new readers.. Guorong, and my colleague, Michelle.. keke.. Saw Michelle's wedding photos today during lunch.. Itz really such a tiring occasion, though joyous.. Have to wakey so early to do the make up, have to go here and there to "jing cha", take photos, entertain friends and relatives and the most tiring is yet to come, which is the Dinner at nite.. haha! Have to go here and there "yum seng", have to be saboh by friends... haha.. itz Not easy to get married sia~ But anyway, itz really a very happy day for the couple.... Understand why people alwis said that a woman is the prettiest on her wedding day.. haha.. Michelle look sooooooo pretty wor~ keke.. *wonderz*--> when izzit gonna be my turn to be a pretty woman.. wahahah!!

~The Laws are made to protect you, But laws are made to be broken~
Got this phrase from the poster of I-robots.. dun really remember the phrase, shd be someting like this lor... A very nice show(at least to me lar).. Will Smith save the human race again~ Actually he's quite macho uh... quite handsome for a black.. keke... Nah, but not my cuppa tea~ I like Sonny!!!!! He's the robot Dr. Miles Hogenmiller created.. He's so human.... I nearly cried again when he's about to be "killed". but Dearie clever lar! He say Sonny wun die.. *opz* Am I revealing too much? In case to people who wanted to but have not yet to catch the show.. Anyway, I dun understand the ending... Hope anyone who had watched can kindly explain to me y it ended that way.. wads the meanin of it? Haha.. hope I am not stupid.. =p

*yawnz* tired liao.. nitez to all~

~i dUn uNdErStAnd~

listening to Sax music now.. and the colour of my mood is blue..... someting's been bothering me.. Been for a few weeks.. I dunno why it happens, I dunno when it happened..It happened juz like that.. hinder my slp for last night.. made me had a sleepless nite.. made me wakey so early this afternoon... in addition, I keep having nightmares and unpleasant dreams... haiz.. hope this period will get over soon.. cuz itz not right for me to be bothered by this... haiz.. itz juz really wierd... I wish that I can tell someone about ths... bit itz meant to be kept a secret.. a deep secret...

~Friday, Daddy's Bday..

Itz Daddy's bdae today..Mum told me to be home early for dinner, but I actually forgot till she called me and remind me again.. alamak! So in the end I had to cancelled my appointment with my Yueyang(my pru agent) and go for dinner with my family..Went to 888 for dinner and itz only then that I know that the coffeeshop employ people who have some deficiencies to sell drinks.. Itz alwis so good to know that there are still compassionate people around who dun mind employing those who are not as fortunate as us, giving them a chance to work and earn $ for themselve.. and mayb a chance for the public to get to know them betta?? We are alwis complaining this and that, such as, If only my nose can be sharper.. If only I have double eyelids, If only I m slimmer, If only I have bigger bust... But have we ever stop to complain and think, we are fortunate enough to be borned with perfect limbs, normal features and healthy? At least we are not borned physically disabled..

Went to bugis with XiaoHou after dinner.. watched "House of Flying Daggers" Itz below expectations manz.. I wonder if itz only me, but the show sux!! Think we are only paying for the faces of Andy, Takeshi and Zhang Ziyi.. hehe.. Anyway, XiaoHou gave me the tix for NDP! Yeah!!! He's the best manz! keke..

~Saturday, National Day Parade Preview..

Went to Orchard with mummy for our facial, but in the end it turns out that Mum made a mistake. The appointment is supposed to be for next sat 2pm. haha! BLur mummy.. But I m blur too! wahahha!! Itz only when the facial appointment had been reconfirmed that I realised the tix XiaoHou gave me is for today!!! Alamak.. Was in such a rush cuz we are supposed to reach the stadium by 530pm. People in red can be seen everywhere at Kallang.. Itz actually quite "feeling" to see people from north south east west gathering together on this particular day.. I can really feel the atmosphere.. ^_^ The parade this year is quite nice.. except fpr the mass display cuz I totally dunno wad the display is trying to portray to us.. Anyway, the most looked forwards event is of cuz the Fireworks!!! this year's fireworks is really fantastic! There's even a heart-shaped fireworks! hehe.. I am alwis mesmerized by the sight of fireworks.. Went to look for Xiaohou and Dearie after the parade ended.. Xiaohou look sooooo man in his smart 4 and beret while Dearie look soooooo handsome!! keke.. Do I have a thing for guys in army uniform? HAha!!

Went Devils Bar with Xiaohou, Weiliang and Sharon around 1+am.. Kinda late uh~ Jasper was there too, and Sharon and I actually witness a sight wor~ A ger was hugging and clinging on to Jasper wor~ keke.. Good life sia~ but he's desperately signalling to Sharon and I to rescue him. haha! Went for supper after that and actually reached home at 630am sia!

~Today... Rotting Day..

Woke up at 3pm 2dae.. still feeling very tired.. Was actually very sad today.. SUpposed to be at Esplanade watchin the fireworks by the USA team 2dae with Xiaohou.. but he's not feeling well.. so in the end, I'm stucked at home.. rotting for the whole dae. But luckily we never go for the fireworks, cuz itz raining heavily now. Lucky him.. hehe.. Anyway, Ah Da has also start a blog!! Hehe.. more blog for me to read now. Hmz.. Going to meet Xiang, Jeryl and Kenneth at 888 now.. haha.. Itz raining, gotta bring an umbrealla..

~candles and Saving Policy for mE~

 

Got a super small cut 2dae wen workin.. and I Left my office at 635 today. helpin my boss to move big boxes of candles..juz like the 1 above.. but cuz she's sucha nice boss, I dun mind lar.. Anyway, I have noting on after work.. keke.. My boss gave the candle to me when I was about to leave.. I'm soooooooooo happy!!! Cuz I've been aimin this candle for very long le.. I love candles... There's another blue 1.. much nicer.. but nvm, This is good enuff. ^_^ .
 
hmz.. in a super slow mood today, so I nv rushed to take the bus as I usually did when I reach woodlands.. then, a guy approached me.. yeah! Prudential.. haha.. Well.. since I have much time to spare and in a chatty mood.. I chatted with him for a while... hmz.. quite a nice guy.. 23this yr, studyin in NTU.. hardworkin sia... work and study.. can say quite tou yuan lar.. feel that he's more of like a friend den agent.. wahahah! Well.. think itz the age gap..he's older den me by 4 months onli.. cuz he's a Dec baby.. Opz.. I noe everyting.. Cuz I saw his IC mahz! hmz.. 02Dec.. wahahha!!! Anyway, a 5mins chat becomes a 3hrs chat... we mostly chat on other stuff than the savings plan that he's showin me.. wahahah!! Fang saw me chatting with him.. gimme a kinda expression.. she wanted to "save" me.. but she tot he's my frd so ended up leaving. haha! Anyway,I ended up getting the policy from him too lar.. Anyway I oso needa save... So he became my agent in this way.. he's so cute sia~ "I will take care of you for life" wahahha!!
 
Yest, Fang told me someting about McDonald's Nuggets..

• The feathers are all plucked out
• The whole chicken is minced, together with the feet, beak, intestine, eyes etc...

She said itz true... itz SO gross!!! THink I'm gonna stay away from McNuggets till they change their way of preparing it..

~DIY 3D KIT~

 

Cute?? Hehe.. went Causeway Point with Fang after work.. She's supposed to be the one getting the Kit but I ended up with it.. keke.. ANyway. I finally finished it~!! ahha.. FAng, itz not difficult at all.. very easy onli!! Really is DIY~ haha! Now, I have 2 more doggies added to my collection of dogs~Hmz.. Da dey all jio Dbl O 2nite, WeiLiang jio Zouk.. and Dearie's now at KTV with his campmates...I wonder where do these ppl get their energy from when they have to wakey so early the next day to go work...  Haiz.. time to go sleep... having a headache already... think I really need more den 8hrs of sleep everyday! haha!
*yawnz*

~PoOh pOoH~

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oooH~~ I m Winnie the PoOh~!~ Keke.. erm.. or izzit piglet? or tigger? or eyore?? Hmz.. wahaha!! Watchin friends now.. very very funny sia~ waiting for my song sia and itz taking ages... =( anyway, juz a bo liao blog...

Saturday
 
Went Casuarina Curry for prata.. spent $62 for the prata sia!! All cuz of me lar! So clumsy! I held my bag in the hand used to close the car door and accidentally "kiap" my bag in between, and my channel power case broke!! Liew~!! the mirror even broke sia~ haiz.. have to throw it away =( and my frds keep laughin at me only.. say where got ppl so stupid wan! kaoz!!! say itz the 1st time he's seen such a thing happen to ppl takin his car... so tis is how i spend $62 on prata.. *sobz sobz* now I'll have to buy a new 1.. hmz.. think I'll try prescriptive.. hehe.. Been wanting to try it and now is the chance!!! wahahaha!!!
 
Went Kbox @ Cineleisure at nite.. such a coincidence that Mark is celebrating his bday there and even greater the coincidence that his KTV room is only 1 room away.. haha!! Hmz.. Xiao Hou changed his bike to scrambler so for the 1st time in my life that I get to ride on a scrambler(shd be spelt like this lar).. haha!! hmz.. the feelin is shiok sia~ so tall!! keke.. loOOooOOOVvvEeee IT!! keke.. Hm.. realise tt I prefer to take a bike den a car.. haha.. Mayb cuz bike is more windy uh.. but more dangerous leh, even more so if it rains.. Sang till 4am sia and went back after that.. super shaq out~
 
Sunday
 
Watched Brotherhood 2dae with dearie.. haben been spendin much time with him recently cuz he's very very bz...and bad bad me had to go out till late late nite.. sorry.. anyway.. Brotherhood is very very nice lor!!! the bond between the 2 brothers is soooo strong... a super touching show... Had not cried so hard for so long when watching movie... A really great show. I'll give it 4/5stars!! eH... mayb 5? additonal star for the handsome actors....WOn Bin! sooooo handsome lor! wahahaha!! the other guy is oso not bad.. more man.. wahha.. paiseh I dunno his name.. =p Yeah.. all in all, a great show~!

 
 
Went out with Mel on Tues. Baker's Inn simply have the beeeessst dessert... the above are the cheese ice cream dessert... very nice... abit on the steep side though.. S$10.90 for such a small pathetic dessert.. but, worth it! Watched Sisters after dinner. the show suxS!! give it 1.5/5 starz, cuz horror movie alwis manage to scare me.. haha! 

~a fUlfIlLiNg wEeKeNd~  

sAtUrDaY
Indochine @ Wisma
 
Taken with Xiao Hou at Wisma Indochine. Been longing to go there for a long long time.. but minimum requirement age for guys is 25.. So its only till last sat then I got the chance to go in.. keke.. Went in for a few drinks with Lp..Hmz.. It has a really nice ambience.. with the built-in aquarium as their wall.. wo0oo~~ hehe.. Can see fishes swiming here and there.. and there's a cuuuuuuuuute waiter there too.. keke.. Both Lp and I oso feel the same lor. He's really chatty, friendly and nice in addition to his looks. =p Even gave us a glass of liquor without charge...haha!! Anyway, Lp and I were there to pre-celebrate Xiaohou's Bday. haha.. He was very touched by the unexpected Bday cake that we got for him..

Mel's House @ Seasons Park

Look like a corridor? This is Melvin's PentHouse! Cooool uh~ Actually he's stayin at a condo, and he happens to stay at the tallest unit with the rooftop.. Wow.. I really like his spiral staircase that leads to this penthouse from his living room..Went to his place with a few frds after leavin Indochine. And of cuz... Melvin the guy beside me.. haha!!

sUnDaY
Chinese Garden

Went Chinese Garden with Xiang, Yunmei and her beau, Jere~ So, wads with this pic? Itz meant to portray an Emperor and his concubines...Do we give that feelin?? waahahhaha~!~!~! *pengz*

Marina South
 
This is Ah Xiang testing the wind before releasing the kite.. Hmz... Sad (and embarassing)to say, Ariel, Jere, Xiang and I din manage to get the kite to soar up high in the sky. Haiz.. think need more practises... =p Itz my 2nd time here for Kite Flying.. the 1st time brought back sweet memories.. and this 2nd time brought back fun~ memories. Hmz.. both are also good lar.

Went to Chong Pang Steamboat Buffet for dinner. hmz.. itz much betta den the usual place where we eat, Zhen Fa.. Same price, but Chong Pang looks much more cleaner. For cooked food, they have spicy chilli crab, sharks fin soup(but of cuz you dun expect much "sharks fin". haha. but the taste is alrite.), steamed trotters soup (the hard boiled egg is fantastic!), green bean soup, Otah, curry chicken and a few other more dishes. As for those raw food,I guess itz the same everywhere... Squid, Chicken, Mussels, Crabstick and the list goes on and on huh.. hehe.. Really had a nice weekend.. Guess the next activity should be the "Zoo and Night Safari" package. Hey guys~ ZW, JZ, PH, STEVEN, YC, Everyone... WHERE ARE YOU!~!~!~ LONG TIME NO OUTTING LIAO LEHZ. SQUEEZE SOME TIME OUT LEHZ...keke. Be waiting and anticipating..

oH yeah, Dearie bought "Sims Unleashed" Expansion Pack 2day. I can keep pets liao~ Gonna keep a doggie.. hehe.. so excited.. lalalala~~

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Friday nitez, and here I am in the comfort of my room blogging,chatting and surfing FP.  Kinda tired to go out.
 
Went Mediacorp yesterday with Weizhong...My 1st time witnessing a TV show recording lehz.. Was feeling so excited..  There's a new variety show comin up soon called Creatively Mine, on channel 8.. Itz about Inventions that Singaporeans make..Well, to show that the are creative ppl in Sg too? Hehe.. Yesterday was the shooting for the 2nd Episode.. Suay sUay may catch a glimse of my face on TV cuz we need to do a cheer for the participants.. and Since Ah zhong is from TP, I have to do the cheer with the 'TP'ers as well...wahaha! Anyway, Weizhong will be participating in the Sep Episode. Wow~! The next Young Millionaire if his invention sell.. keke.. Finally can feel what people mean when they said Acting is very tiring.. Can you imagine!! We spent 3hrs in the studio juz to record an 1-hr variety show.. alamak.. Nearly fell aslp at the end cuz too tired liao.. BUt all in all.. itz quite an experience lar.  Saw Pan Ling Ling, Zhu Hou REn, Belinda, and of cuz the host, Mark and Chen Jian Bing..Hmz.. Pan LIng Ling is soooo tall and pretty and so friendly and most importantly, no airs. Zhu HouRen looks Chi Xiang.. whahaha!!! TTz wad I feel lar.
 
Hmz... boring nite.. think I shd go play SIMS!! hehee.. Tomorrow is another long day.. *tiredz*

t0tAlly sHaQ oUt

Haiz... Late for work as usual today.. Hmz... Boss said dun be late, boss said dun surf net.. so sadz.. I cant send online sms anymore.. I cant surf anymore.. I can onli work and work.. Feel like crying when my boss told me these.. hmz.. i feel that I m sucha weakling.. She never even scold me.. only telling me nicely.(Oh Yah, She's the nicest boss I've ever seen so far..) Felt some rebellious emotions tryin to escape from within.. the more u wun let me do someting, the more I wanna do it.. But I know I'm in the wrong this time.. So I shd except what she say and do my job in the most responsible way.. And I managed to control the rebellious feeling wor~ Never surf for the whole day.. only work and work and work... realised that I hv very short concentration span.. haha!! cAn never sit at a place doin onli 1 thing without wanting to do other things as well...

Went Ocean to get my shampoo after work.. wanna buy Sebastian Laminate Conditioner, cuz heard that itz good for rebonded hair.. Eh, actually used it before but I'd already forgotten how good/bad it is.. but the Auntie recommended me another brand.. Saying that itz betta.. Well.. You never try, you never know.. bought Hair Treatment too, recommended by YunMei.. hmz. Juz used it after bathe.. so far so good. ^_* Luckily Dear Dear acc me to buy the stuff today. if not, Together with the food I bought back home.. I dun think I can survive the train journey home.. keke..

*yawnz yawnz* Everyday is a tiring day.. It seems that I can NEVER get enuff rest.. haiz.. muz go slp liao.. zzZZzzZZ

qUiZ tImE aGaIn~



PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.
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sAtUrDaY, hApPeNiNg DaY

Watched Mean Girls with Ah Xiang last Saturday.. Nice show.. Hmz.. who says only slim girls are pretty.. Lindsay Lohan is not your barbie-figure kinda girl but she's very pretty too.. Well.. makes me feel that figure is not everything. So what if you are not that fully endowed..What shines from within you is your character. Your inner beauty.. Hmz.. mayb i should not alwis complain my figure...

Have you every seen the glass door of a shopping centre fall and smashed to bits? Well.. witness juz that! Lp, Ph and I were waiting at Rocky Master outside Cineleisure for Xiang when we saw this Spectacular sight~! Saw the glass juz fall and SMASHED!! Luckily noone were near enough to get hurt.. Makes me wonder if the whole building will fall off.. Eh.. ahha.. Guess I'm abit ridiculus uh.. Watchin Hai You Ming Tian.. this show really make me wanna cry everytime.. Haiz.. Those kids and family.. so pitiful..

Anyway, went Geylang makan again with Xiang, Ph and LP after we finish KBox.. Kaoz.. those blackies there really need a beating up manz! We were walkin to the car and those blackies juz go *whee wee* and *oei* and dunno WTF they are talkin about. SUper pissed off manz. Gers cant go Geylang eat mehz!! Go there muz let those TI KO PEI bio from head to toe uh! @#$%^&*() But this is not going to STOP ME from going Geylang for supper.. Love their Tian Ji Porridge.. hehe.

Spend the whole of SUnday playing Sims... *duh* nothing happenin uh. Bo bianz.. muz save $$$ Broke liao..

p/s:Ah Boy kena wisdom tooth.. Very painful hoh Boy.. Tc and rest well ok.. Faster go extract your wisdom tooth and become stupid. =p wahaha!! Jokin..

  
3July2004->Makin a Bday wish   8July2004->tOnGuE's oUt

Juz reach home around an hour plus ago..had a very tiring day, or should I say, tiring week.. but feel that I've not update my blog for such a long time, feel like updating the week's happenings.Wanna keep them in here in case I cant keep them in my mind forever.. Went to bukit Timah juz now with Shijie, Da, Alex and Fang.. Wanna sing KTV at 1st, but the rate for today is juz too expensive for KBox.. :( too bad.. Had prata at the Indian Muslim?? shop.. hehe.. Fang ordered Tissue Prata.. itz the 1st time that I heard of this prata.. such a funny name.. at 1st Fang said Tissue, I ji siao her wanna give her Tissue.. wahahha.. so cute... Poor Da alwis have to send me back to woodlands. The most outta the way area, cuz all of them(except Fang and I) stayed west.. hehe.. sorry ya Da~

Ah Boy turned 21 yesterday. Hehe.. Actually never expect that I will celebrate with him yesterday, so had actually already asked him and out and celebrated with him last sat(3/7/04). meant to be only the both of us, but since Xiang, Jeryl and Kenneth happened to be at orchard too, we joined each other. But all thanx to them that I'm able to give Ah Boy a bday surprise. hehe.. wads the matter with me these days ya.. like to give bday surprise..the 2nd that I've gave in this yr. =p Well.. mayb cuz noone ever give me a surprise for my bday ba, and I feel that it'll be such a sweet and happy feeling to be surprised(provided itz a nice surprise lar) keke..

Anyway, took leave yesterday and went rebonding at Kimage..Ah Boy too had an appointment with them to have his hair cut at 3pm but in the end he reached at 4pm. Haiz.. guess punctuality is definitely 1 thing which will never change, even if he's turned 30. haha! Hmz.. wanted to give him a memorable 21st bday, but itz so last min, I cant come up with anything..Wanted to dedicate Bday wish and song for him at the Suntec FOuntain of Wealth but it'd closed by the time we finish our dinner. so sadz.. But at least we got to touch the fountain water and walk round it thrice.. hehe.. Hope Ah Boy will have many lucky and happy years following his 21 years on this earth.hope his wish will come true.. and hope his tao hua yuan will come soon too.. haha. (he's alwis complaining that he's very suay and bla bla bla.. *opz* =p) Anyway, glad to know that he still enjoyed yesterday, despite the fact that I did not prepare anyting special for him.(well, the surprise last sat shd be more than enough to compensate for yesterday rite. haha!)

Guess itz time for me to meet Zhou Gong again.. Am missing him again.. never get to see much of him this week.. *yawnz* yeah.. seems that he's missing me too.. haha!

sUaY & tIrInG dAy



Had a very tiring day 2dae. Supposed to go home straight after work, but ended up accompanying my colleague with her friend to DFS at Royal Plaza Hotel.She has a 25% discount card available at DFS.. hehe.. in addition to the clearance sales that they are having (provided they are having 1 at that time) She bought a lipstick from Lancome for her wedding. Itz a 25% of the original retail price lehz! alamak.. so much more cheaper!! Her friend spent quite a lot too.. haha! 2 Rich woman~ Anyway, went to Heeren after that. My main reason for accompanying her 2day is to bring her to Style Elements.. She needa get a hair accessory for her wedding nite, and I happen to see it once, so bring her there lor. ANyway, intend "Home-by-730" became "Home@1030" so tired.

tUeSdAy
Our dear frd, Shijie's bdae today. Keke.. bad bad me came up with a surprise for him wor~ Msg him on MOn askin him to take birthday off from his camp, So he took morn off on wed so that he can meet mi, fang, alex, Sharon and Da tonite. In the end, around afternoon, He called and I said that everyone cant make it due to some very valid reasons and I am the onli 1 left. But I had to finish some stuff in the office till late, so will confirm with him again if I am able to meet him. In fact, I finished work at 6 as usual, rot around and slowly meet up Alex, Sharon and Fang at Tiong Baru (Da really cant make it. Din lie on this part. keke. He had to do duty. =( so sadz ) Got him a cake, and then surprise him at his doorstep! wahah! He really din expect us wor~ hahaa!! so happy that the surprise is a success.. even took a video clip of the whole process, from lightin the candle till he blow out the candles. keke.. hmz.. Everyone said that the video look as if someone's marrying like tt. wahahha!

Ok, here's the 1st SUAY thing that happened following the bdae celebration... BLACKOUT!!! wahaha!! at 1st was surprises.. following that is.... fun!!! wahaha.. actually itz sorta quite fun cuz itz the 1st time i m experiencein Blackout, and with a few friends somemore. haha! hmz.. nt bad! Cuz Hungry, we went down to kopitiam to have dinner cum supper at ard 1015pm??

2nd SUAY thing.. ordered wanton noodles and ended up waiting for more den half an hour! reason being, there are too many people, the AUntie forgot our orders! we onli ordered 2 plates lehz!! We waited and waited, from many people waiting for the noodles to almost everyone has finished eating the noodles then was it our turn. The auntie even said (in mandarin)"You all got order mehz?" Den mumble to herself "Yah hoh, 2 plates wanton noodles" kaoz!! !@#$%^&*( Really dunno wad to do manz! Somemore hungry cannot dun order.. haiz.. By the time we fin makan, we hv to take cab home liao.. and...

3rd SUAY thing... Taxi Uncle exit at the wrong expressway!!! Instead of Exiting through BKE, he exit thr PIE.. In the end, when we shd have been home soon, we were still stuck at Bk Timah!! After that then he shoot back to expressway again! kaoz! Fang and I was really pissed manz! The cab fare added up to more than the usual price lor. But wad to do? Old Uncle lehz.. haiz.. take it as .. suay lor.. haha.. 3 suay stuff in 1 nite. Not bad uh~ haha! But overall, quite happy, cuz managed to give the Bday Boy a surprise. keke.